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2009-03-03T18:26:00.002+08:00

new url!

sorry to those who wants to know my new url and do not know what it is.
just come look for me and i'll let you know..

well...
physics paper suck!
20/45!
pulled down the whole damn science results.
i could have gotten a b4.
now? c6 ! TMD
math A1 ( like finally)
geog A1
sci c6 (screwed~!)

its our holocaust presentation tomorrow..
not that frightened liek the past,
i;ve been doing my own reading pratises at home.
just hope that i'll be fine tomorrow!! :)

2009-02-27T23:12:00.001+08:00

We're driving slow through the snow on Fifth Avenue
And right now radio's all that we can hear
Now we ain't talked since we left, it's so overdue
It's cold outside but between us it's worse in here
The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now I
know this is the part
Where the end starts I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers I don't wanna try now
All that's left's goodbye
To find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here
Everyday, seven takes of the same old scene
Seems we're bound by the laws of the same routine
Gotta talk to you now 'fore we go to sleep
But will we sleep once I tell you it's hurting me
The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now I know this is the part
Where the end starts I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers I don't wanna try now
All that's left's goodbye
To find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here
I know you'll ask me to hold on
And carry on like nothing's wrong
But there is no more time for lies
'Cause I see sunset in your eyes I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers I don't wanna try now
All that's left's goodbye
To find a way that I can tell you
That I gotta do it, I gotta do it, I gotta do it
I hate this part I gotta do it, I gotta do it,
I gotta do it
I hate this part right here
And I just can't take these tears
I hate this part right here

2009-02-27T21:32:00.002+08:00

letting things go and forget it maybe easy for you.
but not for me.
cause i'm not the only one feeling annoyed and irritated by your presence.
more than 10 more of my friends dislike you so much,
they nag at my ear,
claiming that you did this, you did that.

especially when i found out how you hurt someone with your words,
and then cover your bottocks with reasons.
as usual,
you'll never think that you are in the wrong,
whatever that you do,
you'll just push the blame to others.
the way you react to stuff, its just like a broken recorder, repeating itself.

29 more days!!!!!

2009-02-26T23:59:00.003+08:00

i'm speechless.

i'm really speechless by how you can actually use all sorts of weird reasons to cover up your buttocks and think that you're forever not in the wrong. i was just looking through at those reasons that you gave,
omg,
you've not grown.
just look at yourself,
if you think that you're mature,
there's no kids in this world.
you think that you're the only on living on this earth,
we all are your puppets that you play.

training with nc7 was cool today,
had alot of laughters and all.
the cookie crunch and the cannot complete.
jokers!
and #1 was laughing at me cause i said that i cried like a chicken.

leehuang is so right,
just leave and ignore......

2009-02-23T20:56:00.005+08:00

uploading all the old photos,
still have some in charmaine's phone, she haven send to me yet..

swensen's icecream cake!

gwen's birthday celebration at dayi's house

gwen being abused, cassie just wants to take unglam of her.. zutzutzut

the 7 grandchildren of my grandmother

julian

jerry's birthday celebration at grandma's house

2009-02-23T20:49:00.002+08:00

COMMON TESTS ARE OVER!
say "No!" to sleeping at 10 pm every night!!
hurhur,
i've got a EARcandy that say hello to me through the phone!
ok, i dont even know how IT looks like, got to wait for SOMEONE"S hair to grow longer first before i approach her to get my EARcnady's picture!
the "hello" its super duper wooper cute!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU!
thats me word for the week,
talked to yuxian for 0,1,1.1,1.2,1.3,1.4 hours!
from 5-6.20??
haha, live your life with no regrets.
its our last year already and we should treasure our time together.

"live life with no regrets"
"leave me and will you be happy?"
"its not a choice, its an effort from us to take the step forward"
"sorry was not the word i want to hear"
"the last reason to spoil the relationship is to not know what is the problem"

OH FUGGLY,
life sucks totally, i was feeling sour while talking to my dearest nu-er when she was talking to me singing together while we play songs. I LOVE HER SO SO MUCH! :)

2009-02-15T13:31:00.003+08:00

thanks peiqi, maysiu and huifen :P

guess what?
you girls nearly made me teared cause of those hearts that was in the bag,
i was at the ne corner when i opened and peeped at it,
you girls can ask jaime how touched i was when i say it.
it really brightens up my mood, cause i was feeling super unwell towards fall out.

i wen to count the anount of hearts,
500 exactly if i didnt count wrongly.
i'm not sure if these 500 hearts are folded by only the 3 of you or with teh help of other ppl or whatever it is,
but seriously, i'm touched...
thats why i took so many pictures of it to show how happy i was when i reached home and poured all the stuff in the bag onto the floor..
and and,
that 5 pieces of paper inside,
so tiny.. i tried to dig, but cant even feel it.
and out of the 5, only 1 has a note on it..
lol

haha,
but still,
THANK YOU!

ALSO,

thanks to all those who gave me something, whether is it big or small.

thank you to :

lee huang ( your winnie the pooh letter)

leah, ( yellow jem )

deborah, ( chocolate+letter )

wenhui,( long biscuit)

eleanor, (milo for strengthening me + letter )

yingching, ( chocolate )

xiaowei, ( chocolate )

stephanie, (chocolate )

nc2, (chocolate )

peiqi,

huifen,

maysiu,

mr lim.. (rose+letter+chocolate)

THANK YOU! :)

freak, tuesday is coming!

2009-02-12T22:41:00.003+08:00

it has been 2 days..

trying to live without it tmr.
so many ppl looking at me, like as if some wierdo or what.
and it really hurts..
green tea may be the main problem,
have been drninking too much i guess.
almost every bottle per day.
but this week, i didnt buy any, just drink one sip of it only..

and my photos printed out alr.
stupid uncle, forget to laminate one of my photos :(
i cant wait to pass them those photos tmr to put into their wallets!! :)
heehee..

crap, there's cca tmr,
more running for me during fall in and fall out if teachers not present.
freak,
hate to run in my half u....

there's pe tmr,
if suicide, i am still ok with it, if tennis even better, haha...
just no long dist runnning.
sam told me that we can run 16 rounds outside the hall= 2.4km..
gosh, no way!!

thanks for everyone who have been asking me whats wrong. its just an old injury that i has since pri5. weak knees. cant do tedious exercises. not that i am weak, just my knees. but i'm fine. just pain at times.. no worries :P

2009-02-10T22:29:00.002+08:00

oh gosh! i want a new knee!

my knees are really killing me,
its no longer the pain,
its just the whole damn right knee getting all numb-ed.
i dont want to rely on the knee support thing that i got and the doctor advised
i dont want to rely on the pain killers
i dont want to rely on the cream.
why cant my stupid damn knee just listen to me and stop giving me so much problems??!!!!!!! :(
i cant run cant do drill, cant climb up the stairs or down the stairs too fast, cant stay in a cold air conditioned room for too long..... omg, i'm like some oldperson who cant do this and cant do that.
like can you believe that someone who hasnt even reached 16 is straining so much on her knees that the joint are causing friction which caused pain??
the 12 rounds just killed my knees so badly.
i guess to survive tmr, the knee support needs to play a part.
but just hate the tight thingy on my knee, i feel so stiff with it. :(

BAD KNEES!!!!

2009-02-09T20:52:00.002+08:00

"I don't concern you neither do you concern me."

thanks for letting things go,
cause i can tell that you have your FRIENDS, CLIQUE AND ALL
whoa, thats good isnt it?

training today was so so funny,
laughing half the time,
cause of stupid stuff.
i was rolled around just because #3 and #4 cant get that blanket under me/
#1 was laughing at things that i dont even know what it is???
i think #2 is still as normal as a human.

nc7 looks more united than ever.
seeing them smiling during nursing brightens up my evening!
spent the last few minutes deciding on the venue we'll be staying over a night before the competition.
i'm sorry but to be so so bhb and want you all to offer me a place to stay.
cause i really have a lot of plans for the things i want to do with you guys before the competition
and i have so many things i want to tell you all the night before competition.
looking forward to 27th and 28th of march...

did a stupid ecareer thing and the jobs that i want is not listed!
where's my pharmacy science??
maybe should do early childhood? child psychology?
but these two are like so no future kind of job and the pay i'll get is not more than 2500.
not enough! like OMG
i'm planning for the pharmacy science or biomedical science,
so that i can work in the hospital or the AVA, NEA and all..
cool right??
well, i guess i should not think too much. just focus on my studies, or else i cant even go anywhere with bad results

cant wait to get back the lyrics that joa is going to write for me!
haha,
she thought i returned her thr lyrics, how foolish
i only wanted you to complete it and add new stuff to it.
and i want to tell you now, here on WWW that i realy love you alot and please dont shed a single tear for me when you sms me okay???
you're tears are so precious, its not meant for me! haha.
wait till friday the 13 to give out my gifts to 4 pretty ladies that have impacted alot on my life :)

2009-02-06T22:56:00.002+08:00

everything has came into a conclusion, hasn't it?

bollywood was fun fun fun fun but tiring at the same time.
was eating all the veg in the farm like as if no one cares.
just pluck and put into my mouth.

cca was goodie!
na2 did a drill procedure.
although the bangs were not there, dressing, arm swings and we even did wrong stuff.
but look, we have not practised seriously for about 7 months. -.-
got a long talk with tiffany mdm as the whole of na2.
miss such talks.
talked till 7 ++ then changed and left school around 7.40??
was thinking of some games that i can play as a corp next parade. angel and mortal?
should buy some stuff to give to cadets during valentines' day. since welfare committee have not been doing much.

school was alright.

having a bad headache now. :(

2009-02-03T18:03:00.006+08:00

i just do not know how things are going.
there are like seriously so so many things that i need to decide on.
should i go for my practical exam which is on any day between july to mid october?
this is the only chance i have left to do my practical before my pieces "expires"
but between july to mid october,
it will be intensive studying and revision
i wont even have the time to practise
and i am afraid that i will fail like how i failed last year
but teacher elaine say that i can make it
just one or two practise a week plus one lesson,
i can pass it with flying colours.

it's the confidence level in me.
i am just afraid of that room,
afraid of that piano
afraid of the melody
afraid of the judges
afraid about the grades
afraid about the preparations.

should i or should i not?

and now, another problem
i need more time with nc7
and i thought that training camp will be a prefect time
but i may not even be able to go
cause the training camp may clash with my theory test on the 14 march
DARN IT!
just hope that it starts on monday 16 march instead.

doyouthinkthatihaveachoiceifihadjustlistentomymumandLiwontbeinthisstatewhereiamcaughtupwithyouandijustdonotknowwhatishoulddo next.apparently,iamnottheonlyone.actionsspeakslouderthanwords.whatyoudidimpactedalotonme.those gross statementsthose gross actswhat do you want me to react like?i just cant accept it. cant i?no matter how many million sentences you are telling me, that one action of yours ruined evrything. i may have mood swings, i know that. i know myself so much better than anyone else. if you are going to trust in others words, and think that i dont treat all my friends seriously, think that i am a two faced monster think that i only knows how to use those methods to get you down, think that i am avoiding the problem. then so be it. i am ok with that. life will just move on as normal with anyone's opinion to this relationship

2009-01-31T17:09:00.002+08:00

flag day at raffles place.
but leah and i walked alot and ended up near amoy street.

there was this freaky thing that happed to leah and i that goes like this :

leah and i were walking down the streets near lau pa sa ( old market - direct translation)
then at this corner of it,
somewhere which is dark,
there was this old indian/malay man wearing black/grey shirt with a black shorts
he had a glass of beer infront of him,
when we cross the road and walked past that corner
that man did that prolong kissing sound and wave at us to signal that he want us to go to him
leah started walking towards him to that dark corner
and i said this:

" no leah, dont go there. just move on." i grabbed onto leah's arm and we walked off.
upon walking off, i showed a hand signal to show " reject "
we just walked off and guess what?!
he walked out of the corner and stood at the place that we met him.
he did that prolong kissing sound again and that hand signal to call for us,
so leah and i was like " shit! "
then we just turned away and continued,
we never expected that he really followed on and running after us.
keep making that prolong kissing sound!
and leah and i had a 100m sprint all the way across the street.
and there was this family there.
at that point of time,
although we were in our full school uniform,
we could not take it,
but just ran like hell
and leah said vulgarities without knowing.

it was so so so so omg!
cause it is so freaky and we dont even have the time to generate in our mind to just stay calm.
i was really trembling while running and while running,
i was thinking :" freak, where's leah?"
cause she was running behind me.
then i just keep turning back.
i was so scared that that man will pull leah or me away!!!!!!!!!

I AM SO NOT GOING TO SO FLAG DAY ANYMORE AT LAU PA SA

2009-01-30T21:22:00.003+08:00

this week is just so tiring,

i am being stretched to the limit
i cannot even have more than 8 hours of sleep.
i am sleeping less than 4 hours a day.
when i am at the most tired point,
when i am on the bed and trying to sleep,
all those gross things that happened just freaks me out.

omg,
i guess the distance now is ok,
i'm kind of safe for today :)

received my chinese paper today,
only 3 people passed.
22.5/40, i was the highest out of the B band.
sigh,
tests are all rushing to me next week!!!!!

there is flag day tomorrow,
i need to wake up early and report to school at 7.20am,
just pray hard that i will not overslept like this morning..
woke up at 6.55am today.
how late can that be? HAHA

i just do not know how to let you know how grossed out i am with you by my side. i just hope that i am not the only one feeling this. cause i really prayed hard that i am not the only one being so close to you.

2009-01-29T00:08:00.003+08:00

HAH! we had 20 hidden abalones.
our dearest aunt work as a chef over there at that restaurant and koped them for us!

JERRY!

from left: cassie, charmaine, jerry and i

dad, mum, sis and i

just look at our eyes,

the sun shinning but still need to take pic.

cause the plants behind are nice!

2009-01-29T00:01:00.002+08:00

YIIPEEE!

i had my geography assignment done after 3 hours of researching.
my eyes are closing anytime,
there is like a sticky tape on my eyelids preventing ny eyes from opening.

there's descriptive essay tomorrow.
how great is that?
i must start practising using words to describe objects and people.
i must not fail for tomorrow's composition.

well,
today is such a terrible day for me.
i was planning to reach school on time for morning drill practise at 6.45am.
but,
i was so slackish the whole morning and just kept dragging time.
and guess what?
i reached school at 7 instead.

i just told myself that whatever that is going to happen, i will play along with you. as long as i think that i'm safe, i'm 24/7 ready for your callings. YOU, made me changed my feelings towards _. i thought that it was all okay until all taht i felt and allt hat i did. its just simply GROSS!

2009-01-26T22:24:00.002+08:00

she lost her front tooth

samantha and xiaowei

from left: cassie, san yi,gwen,me, charmaine

2009-01-26T22:17:00.002+08:00

feeling damn nauseous every morning,
breakfast is like errss to me..

wake up and see those food that i used to eat in the past,
but now,
it just look too much for me to eat.
sigh...

had my buddha jump over the wall(?) on sunday
haha, the soup is just so....... sweet!

today's visiting is not so fun,
went to 3 places only

my greatgrandaunt's house
greatgrandmother's house
and grandmother's house

i was looking at my 90 year old greatgrandaunt,
she is getting weaker and weaker each and everytime i see her
HEARTACHE
she just had a stroke recently and needs tube feeding now.
thanks goodness that my gugu is a nurse,
if not, who kows the right way to take care of her

my 92 year old greatgrandmother is another one
keep repeating over and over again,
keep forgetting stuff..
HEARTACHE!
last time she used to be so hyper and play with me,
but now,
although she can still walk, cook, sleep, tidy up the hosue and everything,
but she is really getting old,
cant hear us clearly,
need to talk very loudly.. :(

tomorrow is another day of visiting to my grandaunt's house,
where everyone gathers..
haha,
gambling time! :)

2009-01-22T22:22:00.001+08:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Being Alone While you may act like you don't care on the outside, on the inside your biggest fear is being alone. You can be quite shy and reserved. You feel like a lot of times people don't really see the real you. You're afraid that no one will really truly love you, and that you will be alone for the rest of your life. On the inside you are great person, so just remember that and don't let your shy nature get the best of you! If you don't want to be a lone then you need to make an effort to be with someone. Show the people that you care about that you really love them, and chances are someone will always be there, even if you think they won't.
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2009-01-22T22:16:00.000+08:00

oh no,
its just tmr
is really tmr
its TMR!

oh my!
imagine that darn thing just dont want to listen and keeps turning?
what if i cant catch?
what if i forget my steps?

oh no,
must practise tmr!
keep doing an doing and doing!!!

tmr is the DAY!

2009-01-21T21:38:00.002+08:00

my socks are black!
we had to perform with our WHITE socks!
errr...
tmr have to buy new sock,
mummy gonna have a hard time scrubbing my socks!
maybe, i'll get her to allow me to wash on my own! :)
tmr is practising again
after school practise again....

today was tiring!
first was running to the general office to get sjab rm key
then run to 4th level, got the wheelchair
then took lift and went to general office,
passed the wheelchair and returned keys
then mrs phua wanted the leg rest
so jaime and i run to the general office to get the keys again
then to the 4th level get the leg rest
then run back to the general office
could find mrs phua
the receptionist did not want to help us keep the leg rest
so we went to the main gate
then to the well area
then to the general office
then to 4A1
then to chem lab( or is it physics lab?)
then fixed the wheel chair
and went back to class
reached class after like 40++ mins
wasted my english lesson time!
and i was so so so so so tired after walking so much
but at the same time, learnt a new skill
how to screw and unscrew
how to tighten and loosen
how to fix!
cool nehs!!!!

2009-01-18T11:42:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BELATED SWEET 16 TO LEE HUANG

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SAMANTHA ANG aka OP aka MAX!

huang'y's party was like high high high

the fact that her parents just said

" want beer want wine, ownself take"

whoa,

if my parents can be like that,

i cant believe wat will happen to me.

and every 5 mins,

someone will come to us and offer us with food!

haha,

i think all the weight that i loss is gained within last night!

save all crap.

should talk so much about A party..

lol,

and and, deborah is real blur!

she can just stone at the tv in the bus and nearly forgotten to get down the bus!

GOSH!

2009-01-16T22:47:00.002+08:00

haha,
just had a weird way of talking to CHOW CHOW
started saving the pictures after she went offline..
haha, shall share with everyone the nice until cannot make it drawings

oh btw,

i need to announce something!

there was this white, small, bouncy and glossy looking fichcake found on the table today

want to know why is it small?

cause wanleng chew on it before

want to know why is it glossy?

cause thats wanleng saliva

want to know why is it on the table?

cause wanleng spat it out while talking

GROSS ENOUGH!

had the taking of height and weight today

GOSH!

never grew much! but grew fatter!

2009-01-12T21:35:00.002+08:00

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omg, i need a drink...
to just get drunk and forget about everything
and drink up all that my stomach can and just sleep for the rest of my life
i dont mind my liver failing
or just smoke till i my lungs stop working one day
or just take drugs and let me get high and away from the reality

i need to get sleep and get away from the reality.....

tmr no school! time for open house visiting to ACJC and TJC

2009-01-12T21:04:00.002+08:00

i guess after all these stuff,
i have decided to give up on all of you.

you just walked away like that,
right straight in front of me.

reason for walking away is because you think that its sangavi fault that caused the whole team to do the same procedure over and over again right? but have you thought that its not just her fault. she was not the only one that causes the mistake, its #1, #2 and you who took a big step and causes huifen to be blocked and sangavi is unable to catch up with her own number. if you think so highly of yourself, you can try doing it,. its not easy to be #5 ok?

you are in the wrong for walking away and you will be in the wrong no matte how many sorries you say. because right after you left you sent me a sms saying" tell sangavi i dont want to see her anymore! i cant stand her fucking attitude anymore"

so who is the one showing that fucking attitude, is it really sangavi? although i heard so so so many complains about her. but frankly, i've never seen sangavi showing me attitude before. the most she dont study. but if she studies and she practises her procedures, she can be better than you do you know that?

who do you think i am? really a friend and thats all? you treat me like a rubbish, just pick me up anytime you want and dump me aside when you dont need me. you are no longer a qian jing da xiao jie during cca, when you're infront of me. change the way you treat things. not all things have to suit your way. why is everyone comprimising with you?! you are the one with the most complains alright?!

you are just a nobody who has no rights to irritate anyone as and when you like, then try to please and ask for forgiveness as and when you wish. you think you have a forever time to train? you think you have the whole world's time to get along with your team mate? you think you have the whole world's time to have things of your own way?

i'm sorry, you dont have.

8 weeks is all you have from now. you better think whether you want to watse all these 8 weeks doing rubbish or you want to spend this 8 weeks wisely and start training. its you all that are going for the competition, not me. all i can do is just to train and pass down all the knowledge i have to all of you. whether you all have the time to listen to me and get all the facts right for competition or not, its none of my business. you all get the last, you all cry, you all regret, you all blame me. i wont bother. caused i've warned you before.

and please know that you are the one pulling the team down. cause of you, the team cant proceed with the drill practise. i'm serious of getting you out of this team, if you are not going to treasure this opportunity that you have...

no matter how many sorries you have, i wont believe in them anymore. actions speak louder than words. i dont want to accept your apology and then get heart broken by your actions anymore.

i would rather go to nc2.. they are more worthy than your team.

2009-01-09T21:08:00.003+08:00

I'M TRAUMATISED
I'M STRESSED
I'M JUST SCARED

the scene cant stop playing in my mind,
it just goes on and on and on,

i'm being told that I AM EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE

how i wish a puff and a sip can get me away from the reality
i cant keep myslef too free,
i cant sleep,
i cant close my eyes...

it's has got nothing to do with my cca, so pls understand and stop asking me like as if i am a criminal who have to feel that way for cca only.

2009-01-03T17:14:00.002+08:00

spot for me!

i cant even find myself

so you try to look for me then tell me where i am

i only know i am somewhere at the back

i thought i saw myslef,

but it also look like someone else leh..

sigh,

btw, the st john ppt is done,

just edited it. its so much more colourful

but, still need edit and it will be done!!!

the skit is done, left practise.

the gifts not done, left the editing

and it will also be DONE!

haha.

but need to do the windmil thingy, need to make it turn somehow when the wond blows.

haha

2009-01-02T23:31:00.003+08:00

SCHOOL REOPEN-ED!

oh well, as usual cca crashing on me..
very scared that dad will realise that i have not been going for tuition but cca.
waking up at 6 instead of 6.45 just cause of morning drill at 6.45am. really, my knee hurts after today's practise for NA2.
when i tried to stand up from drying my hair, it was like locked.
OUCH!

next week is fully packed to the max, monday to thurs morning at 6.45am- morning drill, mon have cca fair practise, tuesday cca fair dry run, wed tuition and piano lesson, thurs 2nd dry run, fri prayer at 7.10am and parade at 3.40pm-6.30pm. saturday cca fair actual day.

STRESS!
darn it, its just 9 more weeks to competition. no time no time!

2008-12-29T21:22:00.002+08:00

ok, rather lack but these are the pic from eleanor's camera,
celebrated christmas this year with her and her sister
and also with so many other of eleanor's friends
celebrated christmas at city harvest churh
THANKS FOR BRINGING ME THERE TO EXPERIENCE A DIFFERENT CHRISTMAS :)

look at that unglam lady behind, she was pushing eleanor like crazy just to talk to her friends.

tsk, no consideration.. :(

2008-12-29T21:05:00.002+08:00

school is really opening..
oh crap, just less than a week.

got a new haircut,
cut it a palm length shorter, and fringe also being cut
going to have my fringe down when school reopens :)
but hair very thick when tied up
i didnt thin it at all
a thick bunch when tied, but let down looks ok..

haha,
cant wait for school reopen ( besides the fact tat need to hand in hw)
get to see all my friends again! :):)

2008-12-23T13:48:00.002+08:00

having a pkt of pokka green tea infront of me now.
it's really terrible to know that you have not finished your holiday homework where school is going to start in 10 days time. :(
have been chiong-ing alot. math is killing me. i just cant rmb all the things that i've learnt just a few bloody hell months ago. whats wrong with me? if next year i dun get a good e math teacher like miss kok, i'll need to get a tuition teacher to teach me well.. adn one who will stress me alot so that i can move on and not stone -.-
cca fair gifts are not yet approved. just sent the email to miss oh moments ago. got to wait for her reply and pass them to her so that i can get over it and proceed with the next duty i have for cca fair.
cca fair script i have even do yet. freak! jaime is going to be back today!( or is she already back?) but no matter what i got to do so that she wont need to do so much. sorry hoon, i'll rush it out. dun worry!

went back to school ytd to meet eleanor and to train abit.
did drill and less than 5 fa case.
went to hlm with eleanor to have lunch and do hw.
talked about alot of things,
and saw debbs there! :)
realy surprised.
it has been more than a month not seeing her. :)

i dont know why, but as i thought of what happened ytd,
emotional talk have to start once again.

i just dun know how to teach.
its like you are trying hard to perfect it but it just seems to be so impossible.
how did grace mdm and melissa mdm felt the other time when they were training nc3?
i am really scared that they will do badly during competition.
i hate to see the bad thing repeats its history.
i dont want to be dissapointed with the results.
i want the hard work that all 6 of us put in to be paid off.
bacause i saw how my trainers cried the other time,
i saw how the 7 of us cried cause of the results,
i hate the feeling of being looked down.
when the other team did very well and were shouting 3 three cheers,
there we are at a corner sobbing away.
na2 can do well in hn and drill doesnt mean that nc2 and nc7 also can.
yes, we are passing everything to them. but are they absorbing them?

its just a sourness that cant be explained.
its just a barrier for me to cross over,
i cant get to you girls,
i am loss.
cause you yawned during drill,
you are sloppy during drill,
you are not serious,
you are playing.
you smile,
you laugh,
you stop anytimt you want.
what do you think drill is?
play time?

you think that there's lots of time,
you think that you are better,
you think that i am no good,
you think that you can go for competition like that,
you think that everything is unfair,
you think that the words i say is not for real,
you think that i am very free,
you think i'm very patient.
sorry, dont push me to my limit.
you'll regret if you really do..

i gave you all 20 over days to get that darn book photocopied.
you all said you all will.
then you all said that the FIRST training you want a test.
you then said that it was unfair cause you haven gotten the book photocopied.
and you all then say that the book is confusing.
so do you all need 20 years?
you said that you couldnt photocopy the book on the 28th,.
wat did i tell you?
pass the book on to others to photocopy right?
what am i seeing now? the book is not even ready for you all to study yet!
are you testing my patience?
unfair treatment, confusing book.
that book is being read by more than 5 batch of cadets who are going for competition.
you say that its confusing.
so you are trying to say that all these while when you read, its a diferent book?

i just didnt want to say anything infront of your face.
there's so many things that i want to say about but i am controlling.
i dont want to spoil the training with scoldings and punishments.
who dont wish to have a more relax training.
but what i'm seeing now,
you girls dont deserve a relax training.

jaime, i need to talk to you really badly.
pls contact me.
i need to tell you how terrible i am feeling now.
:(

2008-12-19T11:17:00.001+08:00

please click on it to enlarge...

haha,
was packing my letter box and found alot of letters and these neoprints.
the one on extreme right was took recently.. while the extreme left was took long ago.

2008-12-17T22:48:00.002+08:00

the 280 stretchers are all done!
3 cheers please!
hurray!
haha.. lol.
now need to start abit on the script for ppt.
then when jaime is back, we'll edit and do it all tgt and rehears and get ready for it

15 more days to school reopen!
scary...
haven finish hw! :(

went out with eleanor today,
laughed alot..
one ah peh was leaning against the mrt door after it close, but he didnt know that the door open suddenly and he tio shocked. and both of us laughed until....
and were amazed when we saw a woman who looked exactly like a man!

THANKS ELEANOR FOR THE BIRTHDAY PRESENT!
i cant wait for christmas to get that bag for you and me!
haha...
oh wells, did 2 chinese close passages with her at macs.
we talked and laughed half the time..
lol.,.

THANKS FOR THE GREAT DAY BEING WITH YOU!!!

need $418 asap!!!
any donations???

i want to buy a modified psp!

2008-12-17T22:45:00.001+08:00

We were both young
when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony of summer air
See the lights,
See the party,
the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
You say hello
Little did I know
That you were Romeo you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go,
and I said:
Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say
yes
So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we're dead if they know
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while
Cause you were Romeo I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
And I was begging you please don't go
and I said:
Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say
yes
Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult,
but it's real,
Don't be afraid
We'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say
yes,
oh,
I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town I said:
Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head,
I don't know what to think
He knealt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said:
Marry me Juliet you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad you'll pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say
yes
Oh, oh, ohOh, oh, oh, oh
Cause we were both young when I first saw you

2008-12-13T15:01:00.003+08:00

shit it..

just realised something really serious,
i've got 224 stretchers skeleton done
i've got 32 stretchers not done
i've got 27 stretchers with neo
i've got a total of 283 stretchers to be approved only
i'm suppose to do 250-300.

if got rejected by teachers,
oh no..
they can only reject 33..
nothing more than that.

FRAEK

shouldnt have thrown those extras away...

2008-12-12T12:57:00.003+08:00

fuck!.

try this, waking up early for cca
did 230++ stretchers with the sec1 and sec2s and of course hoon and neo
when going back,
realise some people with plastic bags, didnt even bother to open up their golden mouth to ask if we need plastic bags to contain the stuff that we did.. and they just went home sweet home.
i'm sorry that i said that word so loudly,
but seeing the whole damn table filled with things and just look at how small the plastic bag i have is, i couldnt stop it from coming out.
then it was the windmils..
it was on the floor, gloria couldnt bring them all home, she got a small plastic bag too.
at that moment i was like,
"wtf, so many things to bring back?"
cannot tahan already...
hoon and neo then got me a black garbage bag and say that its the only thing i have to contain my stuff..
omfg,
GARBAGE BAG LEH!
i threw all the indmils in and the stretchers in the GARBAGE BAG and dragged the whole thing home..
imgaine yourslef holding onto a GARBAGE BAG and walking home..
when i reach homw, got to ruch like some mad dog for tuition
perspire until... -.-
and my swollen index finger hurts.
it really hurts.
really really hurts.
its like a pinkish sausage now.
neo's fingers are numbed for a night ytd
we are sacrifcing really alot for the gifts
and i am trying my best to perfect every single gift
many had the thinking
" they are also going to throw it away what, do so nice for what?"
if you do them until very ugly, its a 100% thorw away.
even before cca fair starts, the teacher will reject all
in the end, who kanna? me!
wtf is that kind of thinking.
and i ahve 33 more to go and many more to edit and perfect it..
my finger hurts and neo finger is numbed and she have to do 27!
she is not even the gift comm ppl you know?
she is just a helper who is helping even though her finger is numbed
how to find such a helper like that??
i thought 13 ppl can finish everything.. no, in te end, not enough paper. -.-
bloody hell..
still need to bring home and do..
over the date line for 2 times already
hoon didnt say anything
but is like, i am feeling really bad for not helping
she's so stressed up and i cant even help anything..
i really dont know how to help.
i need her to complete almost everything, and in the end,
i am putting more stress on her
i cant help much when she helped me so much in this cca fair and trainng..
oh my mamamia
i feel so damn bad for her to be like that
she is putting alot of stress on herself and many ppl are not doing the things that they need to do and causing hoom to get all the scoldings
are those ppl sensible to know that we think that they are able to do the job thats why they are in the committe??
i guess they just think that we give them all the sai gang
hello, if you think that its a sai gang, you still need to do right?
not throw everything to others to help you to finish it
and its such a simple task that you cannot even do before you say that you have to be away

training is going to be back so soon and ex seniors are going to be back
someone who have joined competitons and won before is coming back to see the standards
what will happen if ex seniors think that they are not good?
who will kanna? us again..
hoon and i are in such a difficult position trying to help them but they are not listening,
posted blog post for them, no one acknowledge.
so have they read it?
they own blog they also dont want to care about it.
then whats the point of having blog?
just delete it away la..
if this time we train them and they are like the past again,
i guess hoon and i will really give up or something..
they are lagging behind but they do not know..
they think that they are good enough..
like as if.. -.-

if they know how stress it is to train them, i just hope and pray that they will know what to do next..

2008-12-08T22:08:00.002+08:00

cca fair is just round the corner.
and its really stressful cause the gifts are not done yet..
have not met up and do.
the sample is not with me. its with someone somewhere far away..
so its not easy. i need to try to sample it out myself then do with the rest on thurs.

omfg, and the ppt, the script.. not done not done..
jaime is leaving to overseas soon. no time not time.

shit it..

2008-12-05T11:34:00.002+08:00

i'm sick,
my throat hurts
my nose hurts
my head hurts
got phlegm suck somewhere.. cannot come out.. it so irritating!

A math tuition started.. differentiation (?)..
fractions are confusing me..
LCM here and there.. i dont get it :(

training has ended..
now left with the last week of dec trainings
but need to go back to school for cca fair preparations.
got to do 250-300 gifts!! WHOA!!

christmas is coming!!!

2008-11-24T20:26:00.003+08:00

fruitful talk with miss oh!
the soft and hard approaching!
its really interesting to see her facial espression when she's trying to imitate how we and the other reacts to certain situation!
btw, really tired to someone..
nagging non stop you know?
and she's like threatening me!! her msn icon is blinking now!!!!!!
which mean that i need to read what she's telling me and all.
she's thinking that i am her dog or what, telling me what to do you know?
WTF!
she's totally annoying, like some pieces of pang sai!

why is it that some ppl can be so enclose to themsleves and dont even allow ppl to enter and understand them better? do i really need to use the flying kite method and handle with them?
does keeping close relationship help? or should i just talk to them? or pretend nothing have happened and continue??

2008-11-21T22:38:00.002+08:00

last day of hospital attachment.
sad la!!!
so many ah ma and ah gong there. and they are seriously super cute.
especially when they sleep..
haha
btw, this aunty is 98 this year!

the tube on her nose connects to her stomach.

it goes from her nose, to her gullet area and to her stomach

the nurses will pour milk and water into the tube for her lunch and dinner

cause she doesnt have the appetide to eat.

so yupp..

she's really good in telling us about her life!!

2008-11-20T22:31:00.002+08:00

RRRRAAARRRHHH!!!!!
tmr will be the last day of hospital attachment!
its the friends that we make there.
bed 3,4,5,16 and so many more
all the experiences we had with 3,4,5,11,21,29,32 and so so many more
all the scary and wonderful stuff that we see
all the friendly and dao nurses that we met
I AM SO GOING TO MISS WARD 35!
haha, had a fun and tiring experience there..
:):):):):):)

21 november is tmr! : ZUIAI'S BIRTHDAY!!

bloody hell,
there's training tmr!
going to leave my house for more than 12 hours!

2008-11-18T22:44:00.003+08:00

hospital attachment at changi hospital ytd and today.
learnt super alot of things with liying today.

we helped to feed this elderly through a tube, connecting to her nose.
we poured this milk like thing called" ensure" into the tube and into her nose.

we saw how to change diapers and bed sheet.
cool huh!

and so many more things!

2008-11-18T22:10:00.004+08:00

CURRENTS.
Current mood: neutral
Current taste: normal
Current clothes: pyjamas ( garfield dress )
Current desktop: hp
Current time: 10.12pm
Current thoughts: how will hospital attachment be tmr?

FIRSTS.
First bestfriend: johanna yeow
First crush: _______ when i was 4 years old!
First movie: mulan?
First time clubbed: nil
First patner: i cant rmb who
First kiss: my mamma and papa?

LASTS.
Last cigarette: nil
Last alcohol: nil
Last car ride: sunday
Last crush:_________
Last time clubbed: nil
Last patner: leehuang
Last phone call: junior
Last CD played: i listen through radio
Last song played: when i grow up by pcd
Last person kissed: my cousin
Last place gone to: hospital

HAVE YOU EVER-S.
Have you ever dated one of your bestfriend: no
Have you ever been arrested: No
Have you ever been on TV: yes. in shaoxing
Have you ever kissed someone you don't know: No
Have you ever did drugs: never!

PLACES.
Places you can always be seen at: Home
Places you would like to go: everywhere
Places you would like to visit: the whole world

THINGS.
Things you like to eat: chocolate
Things you like to do: sleep for the rest of the day

And the 6 people i choose to do this:
_nil_

2008-11-14T20:38:00.002+08:00

back from training,
i am almost half dead from all the screamings.
wanted a shock case,
it didnt turned up to be a real shocking one. but i can tell that these cases with so sudden stuff helped them to learn faster and better!
was being some dumb crowd and screaming all the way through until my throst is rather pain.
and after the teaching of hn, i think cause ear block, i seem to be talking very loud. dont know what shit is stuck inside. LOL

3 more days to my birthday
6 more days to ELEANOR coming back from korea
7 more days to ZUIAI'S birthday
8 more days to wanleng's birthday

2008-11-11T16:04:00.002+08:00

sigh, its like so so tiring to train and the sec 4 seniors o'levels are ending and they will be coming down to train the juniors. just cant believe what will their reaction be like when they see those juniors doing their stuff. have you seen someone stoning during a fa case when the casualty has no pulase and respiration? oh my tian, thats how stone they can get and pl is known for the cannot make it for fa case.. seriously, if these juniors are remaining like this, jaime and i going to give up really really soon!!! cca fair is also going to come soon and we have to plan for the performance, the speech and the presentation. also decorate the cca board and cca fair booth.. so many things to do and my year have 7 ppl only..got to use the sec2 to help out.. now jaime haven tell me the details i can feel the stress alr, wait till we start work and do the stuff, i'll just go crazy!

2008-11-09T15:37:00.004+08:00

next monday wednesday and friday,
it going to be the most tiring week i guess..
8am-11.30am,
training with nc7
11.30am-1pm,
lunch and journey to changi hospital
1pm-6pm,
hospital attachment at changi hospital.

training for 3/5 days that i will be going for hospital attachments..
i will need to train jaim's team in the morning and jaime take over after she's back from hers.
cause have different shifts.

heard that we will be getting the nurse uniform..
is it true? not so sure, but i just know that i need to report in my full st john uniform on the first day of attachment.. there will be so much to learnt! like whoa, can be a nurse assistant is going to be so so cool luh!

maybe after this attachment, i will be either very into nurse as my future carreer or i will just hate it alot.. dont know how will our life be like over there. but pray hard that we'll all have fun there!! :)

shift 1 (8 am - 1pm) :
jaime, sukanya and elizabeth

shift 2 ( 1pm-6pm):
liying, santhiya and i

wait for my update post on hospital attachment next week, pictures in our attire and during working time will be up!!! :)

-- just talked to zuiai on the phone, talking about the dumb stuff we did together, the running around the plant ( not tree ) and the vomitting after running from kovan to school.. if next year she's able to get back to school, how nice will it be? she saysthat there's a percentage that she misses school and she regrets quitting. so just hope that the school is able to see how much she would like to return to school and accept the fact that she has been trying to turn good! :)
then i read her blog, really dont know how to comfort her. so i just tried to aviod the topic whenever she tells me about it, cause i am not in the situation and not sure if the stuff i tell her will help her anot. so whenever she tells me, i will just reply" orh/so/then " really sorry zuiai, i dont dare to comfort you. i dont want to hinder your thinking. maybe those stuff i tell you is only from my point of view, but is not what he thinks.. sorry, i am just not fit to be in the position to cheer you up..

2008-11-09T15:32:00.004+08:00

gotten this pic from my aunt ytd night..

nice pic! haha, my family is united and happy!!

"a picture tells a million words..."

2008-11-09T15:00:00.002+08:00

unglam!!

from left: giennieve, me, eleanor and hannah!

from left: deborah, giennieve, me, wanleng, joann

haha, just gotten the time to take a look at the sec1 camp photos that i bought and gotten a few weeks ago. and was laughing at alot of unglams.. and there are up too hundreds of pic in the cd. its really worth it, if you nv purchase the cd.. TOO BAD! you missed out alot! haha..

2008-11-08T01:03:00.001+08:00

NEW BLOGSKIN!!

i find this rather interesting though the skin is not very nice..
but i'll just leave it on till i get a new one or i'll put in the old one back in!!
haha, mean while, pls comment anything you want to comment abt this not-so-nice blogskin
cause if ppl thinks that its ok to leave it on, i wont change it......

2008-11-07T22:55:00.002+08:00

freak!! whats happening, ppl are tagging me to do such things!! argh! but i'll be nice and do it!!

DRUMROLL!

Rule #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
Rule #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game sending it to other people.

1.Do you have secrets?
yupp.. plenty of it :)
2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
if he's worth my love
3. Do you enjoy going to school?
yes, learnt NEW things!
4. What is your current dream job?
nurse or teacher? (government job)
5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
yes! i answered this in the previous one before!
6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
loving someone..
7. Will you forgive the person who had play around with your feelings?
depends on how much that person hurt me
8. If the person you like knows you like him/her, what would be your reaction if he/she said yes? give that person a hug and a smile?
9. Is there anything that made you extremly happy?
ah-bu-den
10. What takes you down the fastest?
failure!
11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
i may be dead. how i know how i will be?
12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
friends, family, YOU! heehee
13. What is/are the most important thing(s) in life?
my house, my money, my phone, my clothes, the oxygen!
14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
i'm alright with both as long as i am happy!
15. What your favourite colour?
yellow, yellow dirty fellow!!
16. Would you give your all in a relationship?
no! its about giving and taking too!
17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
argh, just love the two of them and see who love me more and pick that one and leave the other one alone, since is i loev them not that person love me.. so i wont hurt that person!!
18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
ARGH! i answered this before!
19. Will you confess to the person you like/love?
duh! why so secretive for?
20. 5 people i'm gonna sabo:
____NIL____

2008-11-07T22:18:00.003+08:00

end of holiday lesson!!
had holiday lessons for 7 hours a day. 3 days in total!!
it was called as intensive lesson, but dont feel the intensive at all.
haha, many ppl hope to have more lessons!

chinese lesson today was a blast!
19/29 students turned up, just because the chi lesson was at the end of the day and everyone just went home and pon chinese. but we still had fun in class, playing the A class vs B and C class game. lol.. the A class ppl claims that they are playing for the sake of miss kok. lol

had a short training with nc7 ytd and today, rather dissapointed for ytd's training. aft their drill procedure, i aksed them how much do they think they owe. they said 85. this 85 includes the 30 that i added cause they did the duge(?) thingy for up to 20 times and cant get it right.. so if exclude the 30, they only do 55. i told them one mistake is 5, so they are telling me that they only made 11 mistakes in total.. i didnt say anything, but just made them do waht punishments they want, i was asking myself:" how many times did they have double bangs, have messy dressing, have arms swings not together, how many times they drag their feet and i told them to lift up their feet, how many times did they not lock their hands when they bang, how many times did #1 forget the command and said it twice and then got it right, how many times did #5 do her stuff wrongly.. how many times did they adjust without permission even, how many times did they laugh at their#1, how many times did they shift their eyes doing drill, how many times did i remind them not to look on the ground and look up instead, how many times did i ask them lift thier legs when they bang and the list carries on.." there were so many mistakes and they said 85. even liying and jaime was shocked about the number. then i was alright, just ask them to continue. they did 85 squat stands. many times, some of them didnt lock their arms while squating. #5 couldnt take it and continued with buddha clap. she didnt strighten her arms and clap. i didnt ask her to do more. i was really patient with them in this. then it was 7 rounds round the assembly area.. how many times did i ask them to close up the gaps, how many times did i ask them to not walk. i see some of them suffering, i even went up to them and push them forward to close up the gaps. at the first few rounds, i ran with them. although i was speeding. but doesnt it make sense that the faster you run, the faster you complete. and they got totally no stamina. how to do drill like that? just ask themselves la, how many of them was panting away at the second round. then it was the last round asking for permission to stop. while some was jogging on the spot and waiting for me to ask them to stop, some of them bend down and stopped alr.. when i went to them, i even jog on the spot with them. why didnt i ask them to stop immediately? why did i ask them to jog on the spot and listen to me talking? its for them to slowly cool down. isnt that the right thing to do after you are exhausted from all the runnings? while i was talking and still jogging on the spot, #5 stopped alr, she was standing and panting away. i kept quiet. then it was #3, she sat down on the floor and #1 went down to her and talked to her and say: " dont sit, your butt will grow big." at that point of time, i guess only #2 and 4 was still jogging on the spot with me or have they stopped, i didnt take notice of it. when i saw them just stopping and sitting while i was talking, you expect me not to get pissed off? then i walked away. one of them asked" so can we stop?" ask me that when more than half of the team have alr stopped 5 mins ago? i replied" you all want to stop then stop loh" and guess what i saw? all 5 of them stopped. that was what they want isnt it? before that i alr kept quiet even if i see them doing things that was against the rule. adjusting while i talking doing drill and during punishment time, when no one gave them the permission to. they didnt even bother to ask permission to adjust. talk to them, they dont reply " yes mdm/ no mdm" they just nod their head or just reply "orh" all these i kept quiet, but have you really treated me as your trainer? sit down right infront of me while i was talking. is this how you guys want to treat me? if yes, then forget it. if you guys dont respect me, then dont expect any respect from me. i wont respect you guys. after you all did so many things, someone still can sms to say that you dont know why i was so angry. all those things that you done are like nothing to you guys cause you all are used to doing it. you think that theres nothing wrong with it. but i can just say that i am dissapointed by how you guys behave. you all were worst that wat i expected.
especially when i met you guys during my break time. i gave up on my break to see you guys do your drill. but what do i see? the duge(?) part was done for nearly 20 times! and ppl were also laughing it you guys. dont you all feel embarrassed by it? a simple part of the procedure can actually use up all of my patience. the numbers that you all are suppose to stop at, you all already know. what else is stopping you from doing it? i dont understand. like seriously. is the timing too soft till you all cant hear for your numbers? i dont think so. #3 was rather loud. you guys just threw your face infront of the tracks girls.. look at what they were doing everytime you guys need to re-do? hear what they say when you guys cant get it. they were laughing at how foolish you guys are just being unable to do it,they told me that i was really patient to you guys. if i wasnt, i think i will just walk off when you guys were re-doing duge(?) at the 5 th or 6th times. but i actually stayed on to teach you guys and say the timing together with you guys and tell you guys when to bang. after like seeing you guys doing up to 30 over times. only 1 time can make it, but the dressing was off. what does this say about you all. during the self train time, you all were mainly doing footdrill, but did you all actually practise? or just playing? maybe these shall be the last time you all will have self train. cause i see not much improvements...

2008-11-07T22:08:00.002+08:00

cool huh?!
my parents went to beijing while i was in shanghai!
haha, lovely honey mooning!!

haha...
envy me! they loving, but just hope that this last as long as they lives!!

:):):):):):):):)

2008-11-05T22:44:00.001+08:00

http://www.shaoxing.com.cn/news/content/2008-10/27/content_337938.htm

go take a look at this. our school was on the news on one of the channels in shao xing. rather cool huh.. we were like some big ppl goign to their school, the media was following us throughout the day and interviewing us and all.. yupp, rather good experience being like so popular!! lol!

2008-11-05T22:23:00.003+08:00

clarissa neo asked me to do this..

1. Do you have secrets?
yupps.. plenty! (:
2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
if he's worth it//
3. Do you enjoy going to sch?
yupp.. learn NEW stuff
4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
do everything that will please me.
5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
yes, best friend means very close already marh.. why cannot be together??
6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
loving someone..
7. What do you think is special?
something taht no words can decribe it..
8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
just carry on with life!
9.Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
yes! pleanty!!! :D
10. Do you have any regrets?
yes, regrets that get make me cry for weeks
11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
how would i know? i may be dead!
12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
family, friends
13. What kind of the person do you think the person tagged you is?
friendly, sociable, adorable( especialy when sleeping! ), happy-go-lucky, easily contented, my BEST MEI! she's clarissa btw.. :D
14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
as long as i can be happy i dont mind any of them..
15. What is your favourite colour?
yellow yellow dirty fellow!
16. Would you give all in a relationship?
NO. in a relationship, there must be some giving and taking!
17. What would you do if someone whom you hate ask for your forgiveness?
depends on how sincere that person is!
18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
depending on how much i was hurt.
19. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
both has it's good and bad.. but i think being in a relationship will be better!!
20. MY DARLINGS WHO MUST MUST DO THIS QUIZ! (:
----- NIL -----

2008-11-04T18:08:00.001+08:00

INTRODUCING MY SISTER!
haha, she calls me jie when we were in china
she calls many ppl there as mama, papa and all.
so practically her whole "family" is there!!

HER NAME IS CLARISSA! she's CLARICE'S MEI!

2008-11-04T18:03:00.001+08:00

clarice and gracia!!

deborah and i
taking from under table during lesson time.. shhhh..

samantha and i
from under table too!!

hey eudora, i think this one is not that unglam, so decided to leave it here..
:)

2008-11-04T16:43:00.002+08:00

ok,

for some reason, my computer is unable to upload the pics.
i am only able to upload 5 pics in a post.
so i decided to give up and stop the uploading.

will be uploading some pics in my friendster.
please view them from there.
sorry for any inconvenience caused..

btw, anyone who is able to help me to solve this prob, please let me know..

2008-11-04T15:15:00.008+08:00

MY PARTNER for all the 11 days,
who jokes, who play, who eat, who sleep with me
and the one who laughs at herself while biting the fungi off the finger!
haha, thanks for the accompany for these few days!

she sleeps on my lap and shoulder on bus rides.

and she complains about my head weighing 10kg, her laughter make ppl laugh!

and her big name is SAMANTHA ANG SHU YI! in short sasy!

and also really sorry for being so slow and you are always the one waking up first, getting ready first, bathing first and ready to go first. while i will be behind trying to catch up(chilli). haha

and thanks for accompanying me through sms at shaoxing..

THANKS LOTS FOR YOU BEING MY OP!!

2008-11-04T15:13:00.003+08:00

back from china!!

NOT ALL THE PIC WILL BE UP HERE.
MAYBE LESS THAN 10 WIL BE HERE.
FOR MORE PIC, PLEASE GO TO MY FRIENDSTER.

2008-10-23T16:23:00.001+08:00

I AM CHINA-ING!!!

leaving on 23.10.08 11.15pm meeting
returning on 3.11.08 1++pm reaching

BYE PEOPLE!

2008-10-23T16:02:00.008+08:00

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL 2008

2008-10-23T14:57:00.020+08:00

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL FOR 2008!

2008-10-22T20:28:00.005+08:00

na2 <33

last day of school tmr..

sigh.. i am so going to miss 3b1,

because i know some of my good friends cant make it to 4b1

really got to treasure my time with them tmr

cause i know that i will miss them really alot alot..

2008-10-21T14:06:00.000+08:00

HAPPY

BIRTHDAY

ELEANOR

NEO

WEN

WEN!

2008-10-20T21:17:00.005+08:00

my now partner CHAN LEE HUANG!

look how violent the two behind is. ( their tables!! )

took this while mr lim talking

MOOMO, liying and i in the toilet!

:)

WAN JIA YEE! term 4 sitting partner

(:

NU'ER yuxian!

germaine (:
she sits behind me everyday during assembly

YING CHING! E maths partner :D

MII WEI!

JOLENE EK WEI LING

she claims that i was too tall!! -.-

so i went down!

so that they can look taller!

JOANN! ( sce1 camp partner ) & NEO-STER

leah LUMS! ( my unglam ) -.-

LEE HUANG!

AMANDA! (ps, blurred)

AMANDA LIEW!!

mr lim told us this during "live" lesson and i felt really emotional after that. he said something like this" the person next to you may not be sitting next to you next year." i was like omg, wat if lee huang is not in my class next year ( cause she was sitting next to me at that point of time)
dont know la... then after saying alot, mr lim gave us the permission to switch on our phones and the whole class just went around taking pictures with one another. although some are very unglam, but who cares la, just put everything up for everyone to see all my nice friends!

2008-10-19T17:01:00.003+08:00

BLOODY HELL!

this morning was like damn angry! while trying to do the darn math and a math homework, this sms by **** came in and i was damn pissed off by it. not by the sender but the person who ask that sender to sent it to me. its so childish! its too childish till i dont even bother to play anymore. its really tiring to be in the middle and this issue does not involve me at all. what for i continue to get myself in? waste my time isnt it? had like totally enough of this cycle.

ok, enough of that fuggly thing. 2 more days to eleanor's birthday! in 4 days time i will be going to china for the twinning programme. rather sad that i have to give the adult first aid exam a miss as the test will be after i leave. so, have to either take the test next year, or i wont even have the chance to take it. very sad.. ):

results for the eoys are all back and they are all bad!
eng: 53
chi: 55
math: 38 ( before moderation )
a math:75
sci chem : 56.5
sci phy: 62
geog: 50
ss/lit: 53.5

how nice are these grades. wonder what school can i get in if these were my o's results. ITE??

*sorry to ban you but, its really not very nice to see that incident posted in my cbox under your name.

2008-10-14T13:52:00.002+08:00

last day of school for them and its like so so sad..

so took three pathetics photos with them,

when i thought can take like so much more.

nvm, i still love na2 very very very much.

it has impacted me like so much

and this team have thought me so many stuff that i didnt realise in nc.

although nc3 was also a very memorable one,

but na2 picked me up from the failure

and helped me to get back the trophies for not only myself

but also trainers, ex trainers and the whole of nc3 and na2.

now that they are leaving,

i do not know how often can the whole team meet up like this again

sigh....

nvm, but still..

i will train my team properly and pass down all of the knowledge that trainers gave me to the sec1s who will be going for thier competition next year.

seriously speaking, i am rather scared to train,

i dont want to see the same old conclusion.

i am afraid that i cant train well and my team will get the last position like what i got. i know that kind of feeling, i cried for days and weeks. up till now, i can still rmb the scene of fa case where we totally screwed it up. our nc3 trainers didnt scold us for not doing well, they encouraged us really alot...

just hope that this team that i am training will put all their effort into the training session and they will do themselves good. :)

2008-10-12T22:36:00.002+08:00

went out with eleanor ytd
bought a monster!!!
mine is a black one, and eleanor's is red
she refuses to admit that she is that monster.
but she say she will deposit her monster at my house when she going to korea so that i will rmb her. which means that monster is her! hmm.. whatever la..

watched house bunny, rather nice movie :)
both of us were walking aimlessly and we have no way to go.
can walk pass a place for 3 times!!!
left each other at about 9 plus..
cause seriously, we had no where to go, and eleanor was tired. so she go her grand's place and i went home.

went to bugis with dad, mum and sis
dad left half way, he meeting my aunt to play majong
so the three of us were shopping at bugis street
and guess who i saw?!
adelia, isabella and ELEANOR!
got yuan fen!!
bought a thick enough jacket for the china trip 11 days later! :)

tmr is schooling day again!
#$%&
have a grooming module i guess??
but nvm, looking forward for morning drill tmr!
my nc7 is having their first official drill with me!

my trainees are:
- peiqi
- mei siu
- hongyu
- huifen
- sangavi?

haha, see you 5 tmr! and of course the other nc team and the two other na teams!

2008-10-07T21:20:00.002+08:00

INNOVATION WEEK

finally finish alr. haha..
how happy can i get?!
buut tmr have school, errrr. need to present
it seems that many ppl dont want to do well
haha, present infront of the whole sec3 is just scary..
haha,
but still, we tried to do the ppt and all well.
haha.. playing the games from gamefudge half the time
and webcamming and all..

sigh, tmr got school!!!

2008-10-07T00:10:00.003+08:00

wanting to get closer to you to solve this problem is just so difficult
i dodnt want to blog about it
cause i know that you wont like it, but i still have to
cause by starting a conver with you,
we will end up quarrelling again..

i just want you to know that
the problem that you think is a problem
is a problem that i do not know what is the problem
get it?

what is it that is the wrong?
the things that i heard and the things you said?
what is it?
i do not even know right up to this point of time.

talking to you now is like so weird
like two enemies?

if its that small little misunderstanding that is causing you to tell so many people about it,
i just want you to know that,
if you want to make this big, i can

if you think the problem is not just about the miscommunication
then let me know. what exactly is it.
cause now it sounds like i am the bad guy
ignoring you?!
cause i do not know what is the story taht you tell others
so please
like what you said, dont drag so many ppl in.
so just the two of us,
there is a no need to tell the whole world.
you want everyone to stand at your side?
and everyone to be against me?
then please think about it

is this small little misunderstanding worth the complications.
the decision is in you.
whether or not you are going to solve it
or tell the world

anything unhappy, face to face alright?

i am not worried if you are going to be upset about this or not. cause this is definately not offensive and not threatening you. its all facts. if you think its threatening you then please, let me know alright? thanks..

and lastly i am sorry..
if there a need to.
although a problem that can be solved with sorry is never a problem
if a problem can be solved so easily, why do we still need the police?

for now, do you innovation week thing first
if not you will say i disturb you.
when you are free to settle this, let me know..
i promise to be nicer in my words
i dont want to drag this for too long either.
its harming everyone

2008-10-04T12:14:00.003+08:00

LOOK AT MY TWO POOR LITTLE BABIES!
DONT KNOW WHICH AS HOLE POURED POWDER ON THEM.

THIS MUST BE DONE BY SOMEONE WHO HATES ST JOHN THAT MUCH,
USE OUR POWDER TO POUR ON OUR BABIES
ONE OF IT IS THE CPR BABY DUMMIE!!!

WTH, THEY EVEN PUT THE BABY NICELY ON THE BED,
HELP THEM TO COVER BLANKET.

AND THEN POUR POWDER ON THEM!

if anyone is unhappy with anything,
please dont do such silly things to our property.
the sliding door is spoilt and we have told the GO alr
we are going to clean up the room next week alr
so please dont be so petty
and pour POWDER on our stuff!

2008-09-30T15:46:00.004+08:00

EOY ARE OVER!

omg! its like finally over!
yeah! can start my slacking and playing all over again!

thursday is the IG games thingy with the st luke's ppl
hopefully it goes well..
we spent alot of time on it.
since like before term 3 ct till now
so thursday must be SUCCESS

friday is the innovation week thing
which means monday and tuesday NO school
hahahaha
YES!
and i cant wait for friday!
CHINA TRIP BRIEFING WITH PARENTS!
rarhhh!!! 23 more days and you will see me in CHINA !
seriously, i am looking forward!
OP! OP! lets have fun there together!!

83371460
this person called me like so so many times
when i told him that i dont know him!
please BEWARE if he calls you.
he will just keep insisting that you know him.
BEWARE!

2008-09-29T15:57:00.000+08:00

CHEMISTRY SUCKS!!!

2008-09-27T11:26:00.002+08:00

I AM GOING TO DO VERY BADLY FOR MY EOY!

going to fail my lit for 100% sure
my physics paper 2 was badly done
my e maths paper didnt finish
my geog paper was crapped:
-- cool temperate climate=continental climate
english compo was flunked
chinese compo was flunked
ss paper write wrong points
chinese oral was errrrs, didnt understand

what else can i say?? fail everything larh. i think out of so many papers, only my eng compre, a math and chinese paper 2 i am happy about, the rest is errrr.....

monday is chem paper, i got to do well.. as promised. i will try to ace for it... tuesday is phy and chem paper 1. got to like use that to pull all the marks up..

i am like some toot for the past week, go school STUDY, go break STUDY, go home STUDY.

every day is just STUDY STUDY STUDY!

after EOY i am so going to go out, i locked myself at home for too long alr, later too long go out become some tooty..

2008-09-14T17:54:00.004+08:00

ST JOHN WALKATHON DAY!

went to vivo to have lunch and wanted to study,

but in the end..

played more than study..

look at the three photo with my hair let down,

jaime started the game

messing each others hair up

and screaming..

for the whole day,

liying and jaime just kept saying this:

" shhh.. got ppl resting ."

annoying!

went for tuition and back home now!

my legs are aching!

2008-09-13T23:45:00.001+08:00

I LOVE YOU!

2008-09-10T19:29:00.002+08:00

i really want to do well for my EOY

i really want to concentrate

please dont stop me from studying. your appearance is annoying me. please take a step back and leave me alone. PLEASE....

2008-09-10T19:25:00.002+08:00

why is it that everytime a news about you comes to my ear
i have to cry for you.
its always so worrying to know about your whereabouts

thought that i could clear all my doubts when i meet you F2F today
but nothing was odne,
i taught ppl how to do math instead
you were still the old you
who get involve in so many things
and have to settle them down and have no time for me

well i just hope that you can just think ahead
its not easy to go out to the outside world to work
it may seems to be ok to you now
but you still have 50 years or more to go
what you going to work as next time?
without any certificates, how far can you go?
think about it..
i just want the best out of you.

please stop letting me get so worried about you,
will you???

2008-09-09T19:02:00.002+08:00

just had a hair cut.
thin it.
it was rather thick previously
now thin already
and thin till like got hair sticking out
but its alright
my hair is still nice..
HAHA

did the morning run in FULL SCHOOL UNIFORM!
omg
hot till i cannot take it
i perspire like some river
the water like FOC, just keep flowing

lessons were ok today la
nothing much about today.

BTW,
mrs tan giving birth!
or have she gave birth?
looking forward to see her baby!!!
HAHA

2008-09-08T15:50:00.003+08:00

school is just so tiring
i just cant wait for school to end today
my eyes were fixed to the clock on the wall
and the watch on my right wrist

e math lesson today as scary
didnt dare to talk too much
didnt dare to laugh
didnt dare to move too much
i was just to scared to receive the punishment
i was trembling and my heart was beating at 200 per min?
i was just very scared.
what more can say??

liying: we will kana equally okay?
cause i also have written some stuff that are like kinda serious
so please stop saying that you will kana more than me alright?
kana together la kies??
let's do it TOGETHER!!
HAHA..
i dont know why the hell i still ahve the mood to laugh at that statement,
when it is the fact that i have a feeling that something is not right.

2008-09-07T11:15:00.002+08:00

tomorrow school reopen
pretty scared actually.
the results will be out!!!!!!!!!!
i seriously scared of such thing,
nvm, at least got company..
HAHA
we accompany each other okay?

i need to see the term 4 time table!!!
whats the lessons tmr?
what to bring tmr?
so annoying, never put the timetable on the school website!

btw, take a look at the pic of ndp on
http://plmgss.moe.edu.sg/
just look at st john's arm swings~!
nice leh!!!!!!!!
compared to all the other contingents!!
I AM SO PROUD OF SJAB MARCHING CONTINGENT!
haha~

school reopen tomorrow
a step closer to EOY
scared? nervous?
i haven finish my holiday hw!!
i haven finish my revision!!
i dont want to go school tmr!!!

2008-09-02T20:00:00.005+08:00

HEY ELEANOR!

hey girl, thanks for the wonderful time you spent with me:)

we do have got some similarities here and there

too close together already larh

see larh, now looking like each other!! HAHA
although it was just about 5 hours outing,
but i really enjoyed it.
LOVE YA!!

2008-08-28T21:04:00.007+08:00

clarice is sad today
clarice was fooling too much today
clarice didnt think twice today
clarice was foolish today
clarice cried today
clarice is tired today
clarice stand alot today
clarice was stared at today
clarice made ppl sad today
clarice made ppl disappointed today
clarice didnt want these to happen today
clarice is emo-ing today
clarice quarrelled with ppl today
clarice got into trouble today
clarice is dead today

clarice is staring at the screen now
clarice has swollen eyes now
clarice is heartbroken now
clarice has a painful knee now
clarice has a moody mood now
clarice is blogging now
clarice has got nothing to say now
clarice is fuck-ed up now

clarice didnt think too much about the thing that she was going to do.
clarice thought that it was alright. but its not anyone's fault,
clarice made her own choice.

clarice will not blame you, ( you know who you are )

clarice thinks that it is not your fault

clarice wants you to be happier

clarice hates to see you cry in my hug

clarice loves your smiles

clarice wants to see them again
clarice is now waiting for the punishments and
clarice is scared.
clarice wants a clean record of her secondary school life.

clarice is worried about the results

clarice is freaking out

clarice is really trembling
clarice needs a shoulder to cry on.
clarice needs listening ear.
clarice will not blame anyone for this outcome.
clarice is partly responsible, no,

clarice is responsible

clarice knows that its not only one person's fault

clarice knows that this punishment have to be fair to you

clarice thought of it with you

clarice will do everything with you

clarice will be there for you

clarice will not let you be alone

clarice promise for that.
clarice will not say too much.
clarice is not suppose to say anything out.

clarice doesn't want ppl to know

clarice hates to answer the questions

clarice needs peace for now

clarice hopes that she can be like the past

clarice wants to be happier

clarice is now broken

clarice will not be who she is

clarice must be good for now

clarice have to put up a show

clarice needs to be a good girl

clarice wants to get away from the bad
clarice is ready to face all questioning tomorrow,
clarice has done it, and
clarice will face the music.

clarice needs to be alone.

2008-08-27T21:19:00.002+08:00

我的华文口试一定会不及格！！
我有很多字都不会读！

rarh!
even wang lao shi ask me if i speak chinese at home anot
i do speak, but its like i jumble english with chinese
so i cant say a sentence of proper chinese.
she say that i have difficulties pronouncing
wth!
sure anot make it one.
i couldn't read like 5 words!
and i purposely go skip one word and she was like frowning
and wondering if i have read the word anot.
LOL
today was pretty ok
just for the fact that i perspire alot aft break
was looking for giennieve
to swop back our name tags
we were playing during chinese and forget to swop back
TODAY IS FRUITS DAY
i ate water melons and papaya!
haha
I'M LOVIN' IT!

getting back report book tmr!!

2008-08-25T19:42:00.003+08:00

ZUIAI
it breaks my heart seeing you cry
everytime i receive any news about you
its like a needle going in and out of my heart
i hate to see such a thing happen to you.
cause i dont want you to keep walking on the wrong road
i hope that this time round,
you can really think about it
think about your future and not only the present
make the right choice
no matter what you choice, i will support you
but i just want to let you know that
giving up on friend are more worth it.
i know its against your idea.
but its for your own good alright.
with out those ouside friends,
you still have me right?
i dont mind being with you 24/7
i just want you to be good.
all these words may be very awful
and sounds very naggy,
but if this matter is regarding you, then i must say
if its other ppl, why would i care?
just because you are important in my life
tahts why i want to care so much
please think about it alright?

<3 your zuiai :)

2008-08-25T13:11:00.002+08:00

posting about something that is positive now.
cause our FORM TEACHER SAY SO.
SO WE HAVE TO DELETE OUR OLD STUFF
and everyone is deleting their old post right now.

ok, so i have to say this and that is:
i have to blog about stuff that are positive from now on.
ok, just try to do so larh.

ok.. nothing much to blog about anyway..

upload pics and type about what happened ytd tonight!

MY BLOG
IS
CLEAN AND CLEAR!

2008-08-22T18:05:00.002+08:00

got back all my results.
if i'm not wrong, the results thats going to be printed on my report book will be around there. got 67+ % for overall percentage. improved really alot. have proud of myself! maybe its because i studied hard? i studied hard but its always the day before then i start to study. maybe i should start to revise for EOY now.

geog was the BOMB! improved 27.05?!!!
math improved 21?!!
this two is the ultimate ones!

wanted some rewards or so.
guess what my dad says?

dad: when you get good results, you will want stuff from me and say is i owe you one. then when you owe me, do you return?"

clarice:" i owe you what?"

dad:" your phone bills no need to return arh? now neutral already. you owe me and i owe you. neutral ."

ok, fine. the reults of improving like more than 60 marks for all my subjects add together is to help me pay the phone bills that i owe. ok, so be it. so i guess 2 A1 are not good enough in their eyes. when my mum was the one who tell me that she wants to see A1 and not c6. fine, this term no c6 at all okay. but such a thing happen. in conclusion:

MY PARENT'S WORDS CANNOT BE TRUSTED!!

2008-08-21T17:42:00.007+08:00

upload some photos i found in my received file:

quite unglam.. my eyes!
from left: me, moy moy

from left: evan, chow chow and me!
( see my chocolate ice cream)

i was packing all my letters last night before i slept.
altogether 216 letters!!

before

side view

top view

done! packed nicely!!!

totally no mood for chinese lessons. sian. got back chinese results today. did really badly, my chinese results are getting from bad to worst. 56+. cannot rmb the decimal place. how lousy can it get. the chinese presentation got like 12/20? but i think there may be some changes, either higher or lower. cause got to add in another compo.

had pe assessment today. have no idea whats with me. i just couldn't hit that darn it ball. its either under the net of off-direction. all 3 attempts failed. then proceed with practising with joaquim, all could get in. maybe can't play under stress? got to retake..

got back physics paper after school. 27/40. 20 ppl in my class got distinction, why cant i? i studied hard, but my hard work is never paid off. and just hate it when i didnt do well/ not what i expected, and ppl come asking me for results. and is like, hello? can spare a thought for me anot? you may think that the marks that you get is enough and good enough, but to me, i thought i could get at least a 30. but nvm, got about 10 marks of improvement from last term. at least i passed. think positively.

had meeting with GB, NPCC, mr tang and miss nair regarding the CIP stuff. suppose to show them the games today, but forgottten to do. so we had our final planning and going to have another meeting on monday after school.

2008-08-19T14:59:00.002+08:00

here are the pathetic two pictures that i took during pn night
first time see liying like that worhx!( ah lian language!)
haha..

gotten back my e maths results!!
3 CHEERS!!!
damn happy to the extreme.
its like ever since ps;e till now, nv get anymore A for math
and TAADAAAA!!
15/15 for class test and 32/40 for common test
altogether is 85/100 for e math!
what more can i ask for!! haha
but must be humble,
cause i believe that there will be careless mistakes and all
and there's still room for improvements!!

getting back a math tmr.
getting back ss and chem on fri!
totally cannot wait anymore!!!

2008-08-17T22:06:00.003+08:00

hey, these are the new colours! cool right!
i was so bored and i changed the colours!

black

orange

pink

blue

green

white

nice right? haha, the green phone is damn nice!!!!
just watched the finals of woman's table tennis match
singapore gave away alot of balls!!
keep hitting off the table!
if all those hit out ones are hit properly,
singapore may have the chance to win loh.
haha
zhang yi ning is damn good
she was smacking with li jia wei
damn nice!! haha.
she's like 27 years old!!
world number 1
singapore gotten the silver medal!
like finally after so so so so long!

tomorrow is schooling day and yesterday was presentation night day
tomorrow is gwen's frist piano lesson day
going to rush home from school and send her there at 3pm.

2008-08-15T23:10:00.002+08:00

COMMON

TEST

OVER!!

like finally.....

tomorrow having the zone 4 presentation night thing and i think i am so screwed up. the dance steps are not even done yet. and my dress haven find yet. oh gosh!

2008-08-10T11:56:00.022+08:00

the china students left us at avout 8 am today. sent her to school at 7.15am. really miss xiao ke alot. i just know her for 4-5 days but the friendship we bonded is like so so much more than that. and is liek when she was boarding the bus, that sour sour feeling just came and going to cry soon. hate to say good byes. gave her a hug though. she should be on the bus, still on her way to KL.

wednesday:
sat in the ava room and waited for them to arrive. the band played and invited them into the ava room. then we had some shaking of hands session and singing session. had recess with them and physics lab lesson. went to tour around pl and had lunch together.

thursday:
flag raising together and didnt meet after that

friday:
went to the little india, kampong glam and birdpark. had buffet for dinner. I HAD 5 SERVINGS! haha. xiaoke came over to my house and stay. she was able to communictae more with my mum. i had difficulties speaking in chinese! all the singlish will come out! xiao ke slept super early at 10 plus while i studies to pages of SS.

saturady:
met wenhui and her buddy, eleanor and her buddies, adelia and her buddies, leehuang and her buddies, miiwei and her buddy, deborah. had breakfast at the purple colour market.leehuang's buddies, mii wei and her buddy left after eating. went to kovan after that and then to bugis. toured bugis street and we were shoppimg more than the china students, leehuand, deborah and adelia left after that. then had KFC oe lunch. went to plaza sing for ice monster and took train bakc to eleanor's house. watche the NDP together and ordered CANADIAN PIZZA for dinner, THANK YOU ELEANOR'S FATHER FOR TREATING! went back home at 10.12pm and slept at close to 1 am.

sunday:
woke up at 6am and brought her to school at 7am. cam-whorred! had breakfast at macs after that. talked and walked around kovan and reached home at 11.34am.

here are the photos!

SUNDAY MORNING:

from left: clarice and mao xin yi

she just dont want to look at the camera

from left: clarice and jie ni

from left: clarice and jia ping

from left: clarice and huanghao

from left: jia an and clarice

from left: wen hui, clarice, liyue and eleanor

lisa

SATURDAY:

clarice and leah

one of the green one is mine!

fail

finally...

gracia phone is nice. ( the black one )

next jay chou

from left: liyue and jie ni

from left: adelia,xiaoke and jiaping

xiaoke first time on SBS

FRIDAY:

first row ( from left) :

xiaoke, huanghao, samantha

second row ( from left ):

clarice, leehuang and xinyi

looking away!!! ( long necks )

xiao ke and i at the waterfall in JBP

my op again~!

hey my friend! ( you know who ) NO OFFENCE!

jurong bird park

from left: eleanor's artistic photo and my artistic photo

the coolest bus~!

OP ( oversea partener! )

something wrong with leehuang's face!

eleanor and i <3

2008-08-05T22:19:00.000+08:00

FAILED ENG COMPRE

12/25

9/25

TOTAL: 21/25

------FAIL------

2008-08-04T20:16:00.002+08:00

class test papers getting back:
a math: 14/25
e math: 15/15
chem: 7/20
phy: 7/10
lit: 14.5/25
ss: 8/10
chi: 31/50

so far all these results got improvements but its like class test can do so well, exam time will i blank out? i have not been studying and i am totally stressed up. teacher's day performance, sjab presentation night performance, ndp, common test and many more.

the presentation night i just discussed with jaime. doing some 60's era dance. got to wear retro clothes and do some scissors and elephant dance. 5 mins. should be alright.

teacher's day performance audition is on wednesday. wonder will we get in or not. lol.

i have never put any balme on you,
you were insisting it all theway through
and i have also never felt so bad after saying a truth.
maybe white lies are more suitable
as they are never painful to our ears.
its better to not know the details
as the truth is always saddening.

2008-07-29T21:27:00.002+08:00

CLARICE IS PROUD OF HERSELF FOR HER PHYSICS TEST!
i never ever thought that i could even pass for the physics test!
i just anyhow anyhow do also can! OMG!
the highest was 8/10, obviously cassandra
and i have ogt 7/10! woots! its the happy to the extreme kind
never thought that i could do it. lol

having sunburn on my neck area and nose area
abit here and here and its itching me.
ndp rehearsal was a fruitful one tough. we could do the whole entire procedure properly.
WELL DONE!
but for the pd ppl. sigh what else can i say?
see ppl fainting also dont know how to save
still got the cheek to buy stuff. sigh..
whats going to happen on the real ndp day? if got more casualties, can they handle?

tags reply:
jaime: lol. i have gooten used to it. and i am trying to distant away from violin. abit of phobia of hearing it every day.
vienna: i online already luh! lol. i need to study, so cannot always online

2008-07-28T18:20:00.005+08:00

stayed back in school to do the physics project with xinyan and joaquim
wanleng the additional one, stayed back with us.

she walked me all the way to my house there the bus stop and
i waited for 113 with her
she like miss 2 bus cause she claims that the bus come too early
and she wants to talk more.
she only got up the bus when the 3rd 113 come and i have to call her hp
and talk to her till she tell me she reached home.

tomorrow have the NDP training
going to be a tiring one
bet i will get some muscle ache again!

oh.. took height and weight last friday!
and i think that i am fat until i cannot take it!! OMG!
height: 165.6cm ( i think i am more than this! )
weight: 49.4kg ( FAT LIKE DONT KNOW WHAT!!!!!! )

tags reply:

andrea: okies. i will
enyin: thanks!
jaime: charge for what? my update long enough anot? lol.
elizabeth mdm: shuddup. i wont post just for you! you not important enough! jk. lol

2008-07-24T20:12:00.002+08:00

today chinese was horrible
tired until like dont know what !!!
sleep then teacher stare.
she think the top of my head got eyes
if liying nv nudge me, i wont even realise larh
e maths was a WOOOTTSSS!
full marks sia! 15/15.
first time get full marks for class test!
SHOCKED! lol

2008-07-23T19:53:00.002+08:00

today had chinese test. crapped it! sure fail,
comfirm plus chop chop!
physics test was alright, not so bad.
could do, but the graph drawing was totally cannot make it
chapel today was awesome!
i started the clap for the everyday song!
after school had a talk with miss wong.
left school like damn late
made yuxian wait for me. feel damn bad
she need to rush home and i kept her back
pierced my 2nd piercing on left and right
finally!! $5 per hole!
have to season it asap. friday got parade
must put ear stick on friday
no choice....

tags reply:

hongyu: okay, you are my informationist not spy!!

2008-07-22T20:10:00.005+08:00

back from school!!
had prize presentation today!
miss my two trophies now!

got back a math paper.
inproved kind of alot for me
last term got 11.5/ 25.
and now 16/25.
its kind of lousy still, but,
i know i tried my best!! woootss!!

e math test was much easier than i've expected!
got kind of confidence in it!
i guess will get back on thurs
miss kok is a fast marker!

ndp practise was tiring!!!
need to marktime for very long
and i was the timer!!
haha.
but it was a fruitful drill practise tough!
the sec1s can finally march.
although not at the standard yet, but improvememts
day by day is good enough!!

tags reply:
jaime: cuzzie!!! i am sorry larh, nv imform you:)
hongyu: actually i expected more gross stuff from her. but that is still like abit too over huh!! lol
vienna: hey girlfriend! thanks for tagging! love you lots!!! :)

please, get away from me as you are not those type that i will go for. and it is obvious that i wont go for you. you keep doing all those things and saying those stuff are just grossing me out. i've got a informationist, dont make me get too harsh on you!!

2008-07-20T23:34:00.004+08:00

changed my url today
for dont know what reason
just felt liek changing it
and changing th ckint o a simpler one
saw this skin somewhere before
but nevermind, just use
dislike those colourful type like i used to have
and you know what?
after months of forgetting someone
that someone came back into my life again!
trying my best to forget again.
it is easier to say then to be done
so just let fate decide
ndp is coming and the contingent is formed
so yupp. hope that st john wont malu ourselves
especially the sec1 standard is not there at all.
they cant even do the basics
and the sec2 think taht they are very good and dont need practise
what the hell!
i am so tired.
emo-ing now..
i miss those time with ___rememeber you teaching me to hold, to breath and to blow.miss those times dearly now doing it alone or with friends are not meaningful.especially not together with you getting rid of the smell together how joker can we get giving each other 5 mins in the toilet,buying mint sweets and you said that eclipes is the best of all you triedand itworks!
haha..
thinking of the past now.
never mind
got to live my life more meaningfully
think about the future!!

had musical duty ytd night with hongyu
the duty ended early
so went back at 9.30pm instead.
musical was great on friday night
i wore all white, cause i could'nt fit into yuxian's
black skinnies
lol, bai xue gong zhu?
went back by lee huang's dad's van
3 ppl squueze infront
felt damn bad
sat at the playground and had some _____
before going back home.
reached home late
dad was waiting for me.
sigh..
life is miserable...

tags reply:
evan: thanks :)