Monday, December 29, 2008
ok, rather lack but these are the pic from eleanor's camera,celebrated christmas this year with her and her sister
and also with so many other of eleanor's friends
celebrated christmas at city harvest churh
THANKS FOR BRINGING ME THERE TO EXPERIENCE A DIFFERENT CHRISTMAS :)
look at that unglam lady behind, she was pushing eleanor like crazy just to talk to her friends.
tsk, no consideration.. :(
school is really opening..
oh crap, just less than a week.
got a new haircut,
cut it a palm length shorter, and fringe also being cut
going to have my fringe down when school reopens :)
but hair very thick when tied up
i didnt thin it at all
a thick bunch when tied, but let down looks ok..
haha,
cant wait for school reopen ( besides the fact tat need to hand in hw)
get to see all my friends again! :):)
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
having a pkt of pokka green tea infront of me now.it's really terrible to know that you have not finished your holiday homework where school is going to start in 10 days time. :(
have been chiong-ing alot. math is killing me. i just cant rmb all the things that i've learnt just a few bloody hell months ago. whats wrong with me? if next year i dun get a good e math teacher like miss kok, i'll need to get a tuition teacher to teach me well.. adn one who will stress me alot so that i can move on and not stone -.-
cca fair gifts are not yet approved. just sent the email to miss oh moments ago. got to wait for her reply and pass them to her so that i can get over it and proceed with the next duty i have for cca fair.
cca fair script i have even do yet. freak! jaime is going to be back today!( or is she already back?) but no matter what i got to do so that she wont need to do so much. sorry hoon, i'll rush it out. dun worry!
went back to school ytd to meet eleanor and to train abit.
did drill and less than 5 fa case.
went to hlm with eleanor to have lunch and do hw.
talked about alot of things,
and saw debbs there! :)
realy surprised.
it has been more than a month not seeing her. :)
i dont know why, but as i thought of what happened ytd,
emotional talk have to start once again.
i just dun know how to teach.
its like you are trying hard to perfect it but it just seems to be so impossible.
how did grace mdm and melissa mdm felt the other time when they were training nc3?
i am really scared that they will do badly during competition.
i hate to see the bad thing repeats its history.
i dont want to be dissapointed with the results.
i want the hard work that all 6 of us put in to be paid off.
bacause i saw how my trainers cried the other time,
i saw how the 7 of us cried cause of the results,
i hate the feeling of being looked down.
when the other team did very well and were shouting 3 three cheers,
there we are at a corner sobbing away.
na2 can do well in hn and drill doesnt mean that nc2 and nc7 also can.
yes, we are passing everything to them. but are they absorbing them?
its just a sourness that cant be explained.
its just a barrier for me to cross over,
i cant get to you girls,
i am loss.
cause you yawned during drill,
you are sloppy during drill,
you are not serious,
you are playing.
you smile,
you laugh,
you stop anytimt you want.
what do you think drill is?
play time?
you think that there's lots of time,
you think that you are better,
you think that i am no good,
you think that you can go for competition like that,
you think that everything is unfair,
you think that the words i say is not for real,
you think that i am very free,
you think i'm very patient.
sorry, dont push me to my limit.
you'll regret if you really do..
i gave you all 20 over days to get that darn book photocopied.
you all said you all will.
then you all said that the FIRST training you want a test.
you then said that it was unfair cause you haven gotten the book photocopied.
and you all then say that the book is confusing.
so do you all need 20 years?
you said that you couldnt photocopy the book on the 28th,.
wat did i tell you?
pass the book on to others to photocopy right?
what am i seeing now? the book is not even ready for you all to study yet!
are you testing my patience?
unfair treatment, confusing book.
that book is being read by more than 5 batch of cadets who are going for competition.
you say that its confusing.
so you are trying to say that all these while when you read, its a diferent book?
i just didnt want to say anything infront of your face.
there's so many things that i want to say about but i am controlling.
i dont want to spoil the training with scoldings and punishments.
who dont wish to have a more relax training.
but what i'm seeing now,
you girls dont deserve a relax training.
jaime, i need to talk to you really badly.
pls contact me.
i need to tell you how terrible i am feeling now.
:(
Friday, December 19, 2008
please click on it to enlarge...
haha,
was packing my letter box and found alot of letters and these neoprints.
the one on extreme right was took recently.. while the extreme left was took long ago.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
the 280 stretchers are all done!3 cheers please!
hurray!
haha.. lol.
now need to start abit on the script for ppt.
then when jaime is back, we'll edit and do it all tgt and rehears and get ready for it
15 more days to school reopen!
scary...
haven finish hw! :(
went out with eleanor today,
laughed alot..
one ah peh was leaning against the mrt door after it close, but he didnt know that the door open suddenly and he tio shocked. and both of us laughed until....
and were amazed when we saw a woman who looked exactly like a man!
THANKS ELEANOR FOR THE BIRTHDAY PRESENT!
i cant wait for christmas to get that bag for you and me!
haha...
oh wells, did 2 chinese close passages with her at macs.
we talked and laughed half the time..
lol.,.
THANKS FOR THE GREAT DAY BEING WITH YOU!!!
need $418 asap!!!
any donations???
i want to buy a modified psp!
We were both young
when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony of summer air
See the lights,
See the party,
the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
You say hello
Little did I know
That you were Romeo you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go,
and I said:
Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say
yes
So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we're dead if they know
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while
Cause you were Romeo I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
And I was begging you please don't go
and I said:
Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say
yes
Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult,
but it's real,
Don't be afraid
We'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say
yes,
oh,
I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town I said:
Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head,
I don't know what to think
He knealt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said:
Marry me Juliet you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad you'll pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say
yes
Oh, oh, ohOh, oh, oh, oh
Cause we were both young when I first saw you
Saturday, December 13, 2008
shit it..just realised something really serious,
i've got 224 stretchers skeleton done
i've got 32 stretchers not done
i've got 27 stretchers with neo
i've got a total of 283 stretchers to be approved only
i'm suppose to do 250-300.
if got rejected by teachers,
oh no..
they can only reject 33..
nothing more than that.
FRAEK
shouldnt have thrown those extras away...
Friday, December 12, 2008
fuck!.try this, waking up early for cca
did 230++ stretchers with the sec1 and sec2s and of course hoon and neo
when going back,
realise some people with plastic bags, didnt even bother to open up their golden mouth to ask if we need plastic bags to contain the stuff that we did.. and they just went home sweet home.
i'm sorry that i said that word so loudly,
but seeing the whole damn table filled with things and just look at how small the plastic bag i have is, i couldnt stop it from coming out.
then it was the windmils..
it was on the floor, gloria couldnt bring them all home, she got a small plastic bag too.
at that moment i was like,
"wtf, so many things to bring back?"
cannot tahan already...
hoon and neo then got me a black garbage bag and say that its the only thing i have to contain my stuff..
omfg,
GARBAGE BAG LEH!
i threw all the indmils in and the stretchers in the GARBAGE BAG and dragged the whole thing home..
imgaine yourslef holding onto a GARBAGE BAG and walking home..
when i reach homw, got to ruch like some mad dog for tuition
perspire until... -.-
and my swollen index finger hurts.
it really hurts.
really really hurts.
its like a pinkish sausage now.
neo's fingers are numbed for a night ytd
we are sacrifcing really alot for the gifts
and i am trying my best to perfect every single gift
many had the thinking
" they are also going to throw it away what, do so nice for what?"
if you do them until very ugly, its a 100% thorw away.
even before cca fair starts, the teacher will reject all
in the end, who kanna? me!
wtf is that kind of thinking.
and i ahve 33 more to go and many more to edit and perfect it..
my finger hurts and neo finger is numbed and she have to do 27!
she is not even the gift comm ppl you know?
she is just a helper who is helping even though her finger is numbed
how to find such a helper like that??
i thought 13 ppl can finish everything.. no, in te end, not enough paper. -.-
bloody hell..
still need to bring home and do..
over the date line for 2 times already
hoon didnt say anything
but is like, i am feeling really bad for not helping
she's so stressed up and i cant even help anything..
i really dont know how to help.
i need her to complete almost everything, and in the end,
i am putting more stress on her
i cant help much when she helped me so much in this cca fair and trainng..
oh my mamamia
i feel so damn bad for her to be like that
she is putting alot of stress on herself and many ppl are not doing the things that they need to do and causing hoom to get all the scoldings
are those ppl sensible to know that we think that they are able to do the job thats why they are in the committe??
i guess they just think that we give them all the sai gang
hello, if you think that its a sai gang, you still need to do right?
not throw everything to others to help you to finish it
and its such a simple task that you cannot even do before you say that you have to be away
training is going to be back so soon and ex seniors are going to be back
someone who have joined competitons and won before is coming back to see the standards
what will happen if ex seniors think that they are not good?
who will kanna? us again..
hoon and i are in such a difficult position trying to help them but they are not listening,
posted blog post for them, no one acknowledge.
so have they read it?
they own blog they also dont want to care about it.
then whats the point of having blog?
just delete it away la..
if this time we train them and they are like the past again,
i guess hoon and i will really give up or something..
they are lagging behind but they do not know..
they think that they are good enough..
like as if.. -.-
if they know how stress it is to train them, i just hope and pray that they will know what to do next..
Monday, December 8, 2008
cca fair is just round the corner.and its really stressful cause the gifts are not done yet..
have not met up and do.
the sample is not with me. its with someone somewhere far away..
so its not easy. i need to try to sample it out myself then do with the rest on thurs.
omfg, and the ppt, the script.. not done not done..
jaime is leaving to overseas soon. no time not time.
shit it..
Friday, December 5, 2008
i'm sick,my throat hurts
my nose hurts
my head hurts
got phlegm suck somewhere.. cannot come out.. it so irritating!
A math tuition started.. differentiation (?)..
fractions are confusing me..
LCM here and there.. i dont get it :(
training has ended..
now left with the last week of dec trainings
but need to go back to school for cca fair preparations.
got to do 250-300 gifts!! WHOA!!
christmas is coming!!!
