Saturday, January 31, 2009
flag day at raffles place.but leah and i walked alot and ended up near amoy street.
there was this freaky thing that happed to leah and i that goes like this :
leah and i were walking down the streets near lau pa sa ( old market - direct translation)
then at this corner of it,
somewhere which is dark,
there was this old indian/malay man wearing black/grey shirt with a black shorts
he had a glass of beer infront of him,
when we cross the road and walked past that corner
that man did that prolong kissing sound and wave at us to signal that he want us to go to him
leah started walking towards him to that dark corner
and i said this:
" no leah, dont go there. just move on." i grabbed onto leah's arm and we walked off.
upon walking off, i showed a hand signal to show " reject "
we just walked off and guess what?!
he walked out of the corner and stood at the place that we met him.
he did that prolong kissing sound again and that hand signal to call for us,
so leah and i was like " shit! "
then we just turned away and continued,
we never expected that he really followed on and running after us.
keep making that prolong kissing sound!
and leah and i had a 100m sprint all the way across the street.
and there was this family there.
at that point of time,
although we were in our full school uniform,
we could not take it,
but just ran like hell
and leah said vulgarities without knowing.
it was so so so so omg!
cause it is so freaky and we dont even have the time to generate in our mind to just stay calm.
i was really trembling while running and while running,
i was thinking :" freak, where's leah?"
cause she was running behind me.
then i just keep turning back.
i was so scared that that man will pull leah or me away!!!!!!!!!
I AM SO NOT GOING TO SO FLAG DAY ANYMORE AT LAU PA SA
Friday, January 30, 2009
this week is just so tiring,i am being stretched to the limit
i cannot even have more than 8 hours of sleep.
i am sleeping less than 4 hours a day.
when i am at the most tired point,
when i am on the bed and trying to sleep,
all those gross things that happened just freaks me out.
omg,
i guess the distance now is ok,
i'm kind of safe for today :)
received my chinese paper today,
only 3 people passed.
22.5/40, i was the highest out of the B band.
sigh,
tests are all rushing to me next week!!!!!
there is flag day tomorrow,
i need to wake up early and report to school at 7.20am,
just pray hard that i will not overslept like this morning..
woke up at 6.55am today.
how late can that be? HAHA
i just do not know how to let you know how grossed out i am with you by my side. i just hope that i am not the only one feeling this. cause i really prayed hard that i am not the only one being so close to you.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
HAH! we had 20 hidden abalones.
our dearest aunt work as a chef over there at that restaurant and koped them for us!
JERRY!
from left: cassie, charmaine, jerry and i
dad, mum, sis and i
just look at our eyes,
the sun shinning but still need to take pic.
cause the plants behind are nice!
YIIPEEE!
i had my geography assignment done after 3 hours of researching.
my eyes are closing anytime,
there is like a sticky tape on my eyelids preventing ny eyes from opening.
there's descriptive essay tomorrow.
how great is that?
i must start practising using words to describe objects and people.
i must not fail for tomorrow's composition.
well,
today is such a terrible day for me.
i was planning to reach school on time for morning drill practise at 6.45am.
but,
i was so slackish the whole morning and just kept dragging time.
and guess what?
i reached school at 7 instead.
i just told myself that whatever that is going to happen, i will play along with you. as long as i think that i'm safe, i'm 24/7 ready for your callings. YOU, made me changed my feelings towards _. i thought that it was all okay until all taht i felt and allt hat i did. its just simply GROSS!
Monday, January 26, 2009
she lost her front tooth
samantha and xiaowei
from left: cassie, san yi,gwen,me, charmaine
feeling damn nauseous every morning,
breakfast is like errss to me..
wake up and see those food that i used to eat in the past,
but now,
it just look too much for me to eat.
sigh...
had my buddha jump over the wall(?) on sunday
haha, the soup is just so....... sweet!
today's visiting is not so fun,
went to 3 places only
my greatgrandaunt's house
greatgrandmother's house
and grandmother's house
i was looking at my 90 year old greatgrandaunt,
she is getting weaker and weaker each and everytime i see her
HEARTACHE
she just had a stroke recently and needs tube feeding now.
thanks goodness that my gugu is a nurse,
if not, who kows the right way to take care of her
my 92 year old greatgrandmother is another one
keep repeating over and over again,
keep forgetting stuff..
HEARTACHE!
last time she used to be so hyper and play with me,
but now,
although she can still walk, cook, sleep, tidy up the hosue and everything,
but she is really getting old,
cant hear us clearly,
need to talk very loudly.. :(
tomorrow is another day of visiting to my grandaunt's house,
where everyone gathers..
haha,
gambling time! :)
Thursday, January 22, 2009
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oh no,
its just tmr
is really tmr
its TMR!
oh my!
imagine that darn thing just dont want to listen and keeps turning?
what if i cant catch?
what if i forget my steps?
oh no,
must practise tmr!
keep doing an doing and doing!!!
tmr is the DAY!
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
my socks are black!we had to perform with our WHITE socks!
errr...
tmr have to buy new sock,
mummy gonna have a hard time scrubbing my socks!
maybe, i'll get her to allow me to wash on my own! :)
tmr is practising again
after school practise again....
today was tiring!
first was running to the general office to get sjab rm key
then run to 4th level, got the wheelchair
then took lift and went to general office,
passed the wheelchair and returned keys
then mrs phua wanted the leg rest
so jaime and i run to the general office to get the keys again
then to the 4th level get the leg rest
then run back to the general office
could find mrs phua
the receptionist did not want to help us keep the leg rest
so we went to the main gate
then to the well area
then to the general office
then to 4A1
then to chem lab( or is it physics lab?)
then fixed the wheel chair
and went back to class
reached class after like 40++ mins
wasted my english lesson time!
and i was so so so so so tired after walking so much
but at the same time, learnt a new skill
how to screw and unscrew
how to tighten and loosen
how to fix!
cool nehs!!!!
Sunday, January 18, 2009
HAPPY BELATED SWEET 16 TO LEE HUANG
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SAMANTHA ANG aka OP aka MAX!
huang'y's party was like high high high
the fact that her parents just said
" want beer want wine, ownself take"
whoa,
if my parents can be like that,
i cant believe wat will happen to me.
and every 5 mins,
someone will come to us and offer us with food!
haha,
i think all the weight that i loss is gained within last night!
save all crap.
should talk so much about A party..
lol,
and and, deborah is real blur!
she can just stone at the tv in the bus and nearly forgotten to get down the bus!
GOSH!
Friday, January 16, 2009
haha,just had a weird way of talking to CHOW CHOW
started saving the pictures after she went offline..
haha, shall share with everyone the nice until cannot make it drawings
oh btw,
i need to announce something!
there was this white, small, bouncy and glossy looking fichcake found on the table today
want to know why is it small?
cause wanleng chew on it before
want to know why is it glossy?
cause thats wanleng saliva
want to know why is it on the table?
cause wanleng spat it out while talking
GROSS ENOUGH!
had the taking of height and weight today
GOSH!
never grew much! but grew fatter!
Monday, January 12, 2009
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omg, i need a drink...
to just get drunk and forget about everything
and drink up all that my stomach can and just sleep for the rest of my life
i dont mind my liver failing
or just smoke till i my lungs stop working one day
or just take drugs and let me get high and away from the reality
i need to get sleep and get away from the reality.....
tmr no school! time for open house visiting to ACJC and TJC
i guess after all these stuff,
i have decided to give up on all of you.
you just walked away like that,
right straight in front of me.
reason for walking away is because you think that its sangavi fault that caused the whole team to do the same procedure over and over again right? but have you thought that its not just her fault. she was not the only one that causes the mistake, its #1, #2 and you who took a big step and causes huifen to be blocked and sangavi is unable to catch up with her own number. if you think so highly of yourself, you can try doing it,. its not easy to be #5 ok?
you are in the wrong for walking away and you will be in the wrong no matte how many sorries you say. because right after you left you sent me a sms saying" tell sangavi i dont want to see her anymore! i cant stand her fucking attitude anymore"
so who is the one showing that fucking attitude, is it really sangavi? although i heard so so so many complains about her. but frankly, i've never seen sangavi showing me attitude before. the most she dont study. but if she studies and she practises her procedures, she can be better than you do you know that?
who do you think i am? really a friend and thats all? you treat me like a rubbish, just pick me up anytime you want and dump me aside when you dont need me. you are no longer a qian jing da xiao jie during cca, when you're infront of me. change the way you treat things. not all things have to suit your way. why is everyone comprimising with you?! you are the one with the most complains alright?!
you are just a nobody who has no rights to irritate anyone as and when you like, then try to please and ask for forgiveness as and when you wish. you think you have a forever time to train? you think you have the whole world's time to get along with your team mate? you think you have the whole world's time to have things of your own way?
i'm sorry, you dont have.
8 weeks is all you have from now. you better think whether you want to watse all these 8 weeks doing rubbish or you want to spend this 8 weeks wisely and start training. its you all that are going for the competition, not me. all i can do is just to train and pass down all the knowledge i have to all of you. whether you all have the time to listen to me and get all the facts right for competition or not, its none of my business. you all get the last, you all cry, you all regret, you all blame me. i wont bother. caused i've warned you before.
and please know that you are the one pulling the team down. cause of you, the team cant proceed with the drill practise. i'm serious of getting you out of this team, if you are not going to treasure this opportunity that you have...
no matter how many sorries you have, i wont believe in them anymore. actions speak louder than words. i dont want to accept your apology and then get heart broken by your actions anymore.
i would rather go to nc2.. they are more worthy than your team.
Friday, January 9, 2009
I'M TRAUMATISEDI'M STRESSED
I'M JUST SCARED
the scene cant stop playing in my mind,
it just goes on and on and on,
i'm being told that I AM EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE
how i wish a puff and a sip can get me away from the reality
i cant keep myslef too free,
i cant sleep,
i cant close my eyes...
it's has got nothing to do with my cca, so pls understand and stop asking me like as if i am a criminal who have to feel that way for cca only.
Saturday, January 3, 2009
spot for me!
i cant even find myself
so you try to look for me then tell me where i am
i only know i am somewhere at the back
i thought i saw myslef,
but it also look like someone else leh..
sigh,
btw, the st john ppt is done,
just edited it. its so much more colourful
but, still need edit and it will be done!!!
the skit is done, left practise.
the gifts not done, left the editing
and it will also be DONE!
haha.
but need to do the windmil thingy, need to make it turn somehow when the wond blows.
haha
Friday, January 2, 2009
SCHOOL REOPEN-ED!oh well, as usual cca crashing on me..
very scared that dad will realise that i have not been going for tuition but cca.
waking up at 6 instead of 6.45 just cause of morning drill at 6.45am. really, my knee hurts after today's practise for NA2.
when i tried to stand up from drying my hair, it was like locked.
OUCH!
next week is fully packed to the max, monday to thurs morning at 6.45am- morning drill, mon have cca fair practise, tuesday cca fair dry run, wed tuition and piano lesson, thurs 2nd dry run, fri prayer at 7.10am and parade at 3.40pm-6.30pm. saturday cca fair actual day.
STRESS!
darn it, its just 9 more weeks to competition. no time no time!
